The day before my birthday I got a facebook message from my cousin Adam. My cousin Adam is on my Dad's side of the family. I'm not quite sure what developmental problems he has but in my mind Adam is always ten years old.
The first message was one line. It said, "Hello Carly Frazier. Its me. Adam."
I chuckled to myself as I read it thinking how much of a little child he is. He commented on how my birthday was the next day and asked how old I would be turning. I told him 23 and he pointed out to me that I'm only three years older than him. Wow. Crazy since he is so much like a child to me. Then he told me that he has a girlfriend. Which made me smile. He deserves to be happy right? He found someone. Then he asked if I have a boyfriend. I told him I don't. He said "well then you need to get one." I laughed again thinking "holy cow! thats been my problem! I just need to GET ONE!!!" So I told him I would work on that. Then he said...
"your twenty three and i started dating when i was eighteen and now i have a girlfriend now"
OKAY! The brutal childlike honesty JUST stopped being cute! I called my mom and we laughed and laughed. Finally I wrote him back and told him that for people as amazing as him it doesn't take very long. That if I were as cool as him I'd have a boyfriend by now. He wrote me back and said, "well i don't know about that but i will tell you this your cute so any guy can ask you out if they ask you or you ask them"
Okay. The childlike honesty is cute again.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
What made me happy
Tonight I got to see my dear friend Kay.
Kay and I met our very first semester out at college. We were the first ones to arrive into our dorm. We became instant friends and had dinner together our first night and went to all the freshman activities together.
Now...five years later...she is married and eight months pregnant. Her husband is far away serving in the army. She is still attending school up in Idaho and I have graduated and am working in Utah. She came down for a visit.
We had dinner with her dad and her brother. Then we went to the mall. I bought my future little niece, Brooklyn Kay, an adorable outfit, complete with matching shoes. Kay then got her first tube of eye liner, which made her beautiful brown eyes stand out even more. Then, FINALLY, with an excuse to go into the Motherhood Maternity store....I forced her inside and made her try on outfits, her favorite of which I bought her. And getting $0.50 ice cream cones at Macey's and walking around the store and talking.
We discussed our lives. How they've turned out.
She asked what she can do for me. She wants me to be happy. And she knows that I've always wanted to be married and be a mom.
I told her that I am happy. That I still want those things. More than anything. But that they'll come in time.
You know what made me happy?
Serving her. I know it sounds cheesy. But spending time with her. Listening to her talk about her life and her concerns and joys. Buying her things for her and her baby. Thats what she did for me. Thats how she made me happy.
Kay and I met our very first semester out at college. We were the first ones to arrive into our dorm. We became instant friends and had dinner together our first night and went to all the freshman activities together.
Now...five years later...she is married and eight months pregnant. Her husband is far away serving in the army. She is still attending school up in Idaho and I have graduated and am working in Utah. She came down for a visit.
We had dinner with her dad and her brother. Then we went to the mall. I bought my future little niece, Brooklyn Kay, an adorable outfit, complete with matching shoes. Kay then got her first tube of eye liner, which made her beautiful brown eyes stand out even more. Then, FINALLY, with an excuse to go into the Motherhood Maternity store....I forced her inside and made her try on outfits, her favorite of which I bought her. And getting $0.50 ice cream cones at Macey's and walking around the store and talking.
We discussed our lives. How they've turned out.
She asked what she can do for me. She wants me to be happy. And she knows that I've always wanted to be married and be a mom.
I told her that I am happy. That I still want those things. More than anything. But that they'll come in time.
You know what made me happy?
Serving her. I know it sounds cheesy. But spending time with her. Listening to her talk about her life and her concerns and joys. Buying her things for her and her baby. Thats what she did for me. Thats how she made me happy.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
I think in blog....
Its true. I constantly go throughout my day thinking about what would make a good blog story. Writing on here is addictive. And therapeutic. Sometimes I wish no one else read it so I could pour out my deepest thoughts on here.
But long story short. I have become one of "those" people.
I think in blog.
But long story short. I have become one of "those" people.
I think in blog.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Desires
Today I'm at home from church. Sick. I know...one thing after another for me.
But I've been thinking about all the things I want to do.
1. I want to have time to design things that I want to design.
2. I want to go back to school and learn web design.
3. I want my own apartment to buy my own furniture for and decorate.
4. I want to run a half marathon.
5. I want to study Spanish. And become fluent.
6. I want to be the person that sends people nice notes in the mail or care packages.
7. I want to travel. OH so bad.
8. I want to learn to play the violin.
9. I want to write.
And this stuff isn't about not being satisfied with the life I have. I just want to find a little time each day to do something that I want to do. These are my desires.
"Desires dictate our priorities, priorities shape our choices, and choices determine our actions. The desires we act on determine our changing, our achieving, and our becoming."
That's the kind of person I want to become.
But I've been thinking about all the things I want to do.
1. I want to have time to design things that I want to design.
2. I want to go back to school and learn web design.
3. I want my own apartment to buy my own furniture for and decorate.
4. I want to run a half marathon.
5. I want to study Spanish. And become fluent.
6. I want to be the person that sends people nice notes in the mail or care packages.
7. I want to travel. OH so bad.
8. I want to learn to play the violin.
9. I want to write.
And this stuff isn't about not being satisfied with the life I have. I just want to find a little time each day to do something that I want to do. These are my desires.
"Desires dictate our priorities, priorities shape our choices, and choices determine our actions. The desires we act on determine our changing, our achieving, and our becoming."
That's the kind of person I want to become.
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